I put my blog back to a standard template since I wasn't really updating anyway and the whole layout was so out of date. Obviously, as evidenced by my complete lack of updates for a year, my focus shifted away from blogging. I have a lot of other things going on in my life like a relationship and making a big move and graduating and working and...I guess it just shifted to the backburner. Which isn't to say that I don't read blogs, because I do...I just never knew what to say to update anyway. We all know that I have fears about updating and someone who shouldn't find it finding it so I tend to reveal little and when the main thing going on in my life was something I couldn't reveal...I just had no words.

But...I'm still here. I'm still reading your blog probably...I just don't have much to say.

Wow...did you know that I've had this blog for over 4 years.

I suppose that doesn't count though when I haven't updated for just about a full year.

It's been so long since I logged into blogger that...well I didn't know it was associated with google accounts now. What is that about anyway...flickr associates with yahoo, blogger with google...i suppose it means I have less logins to remember but...I'm not sure otherwise what the purpose is.

anyway...because the template was so outdated...and didn't even load properly for me anymore...I switched to just some blogger template. Obviously I don't use this much so...if I come back to using it often, I will update the template. Or maybe ask someone for one they've made.

It just felt like...I needed to come update.

Sometimes life is ok, sometimes life is great. Seems that a lot of bad news has been coming lately but...I know things will get better. It just takes time and perhaps we will soon gain some stability. I would love to tell you all the wonderful things in my life but...I still have this discomfort with sharing large things on the internet because eyes that shouldn't read them inevitably do. And that's not the proper way to share big things. If that makes any sense.

So...know this...I'm still alive. :)

I...had a new experience yesterday.

While I've been searching for an apartment...I've been staying in a motel/staying with a friend.

Well, had a weird experience last night. Having to remove any trace of me from there because they had family coming to visit and family didn't know about me. Heh. Down to weird things like, "is there any food I have here that you don't eat?" hehe.

Just weird.

I also had a weird experience of going out to eat and having three different waiters. I swear, everything we got was brought to us by a different one.

Ok, a more complete update for you.

In May, I graduated from college. I have a degree that says I am capable of teaching all your little children.

However, since I currently reside in a state 1000 miles away from the one I want to move to, I've been applying to jobs there. But...I keep getting rejected. This is probably 1) because I have no experience and 2) because at the point I applied I wasn't certified in the state.

However, since it is now August and school is getting ready to start again soon...well, if I am going to be unemployed I may as well move somewhere where the cost-of-living is cheaper. Where rent on a 2-bedroom apartment is approx. 1/2 of rent on a 2-bedroom where I grew up. But I'll still get paid about the same/day as a substitute.

So next week, I'm moving to Minnesota. I had it all planned out to make two twips...

But then driving back from my last trip to Minnesota...I crashed my car. In Wisconsin. This involved some frantic "how do I get home?" along with a lot of walking. Walking to get my belongings from my car. Walking to try to find the mall. Walking to take the bus to get to the mall to buy some luggage so I could fly home. Lots of walking in 95 degree heat. I think I must have lost 5 lbs in the day I spent in Wisconsin. Luckily everyone was very nice and helpful.

So I spent a few days at my mother's house, bought a new car (well, 2002 but that's the newest I've ever owned), that will allow me to make it in one trip.

I have...9 days until I move out and no definite place I'm moving into...but I do have somewhere to stay. Mmhmm.

Remember that love thing? It is stronger and stronger every day.

I wish I could say more but...I have no idea who reads this.

Let me see..a lot of things have happened since the last time I updated. I've still been around reading blogs just haven't had a lot to post.

No bites on jobs. Boo. No one wants a teacher with no experience.

Umm, in the next week and a half...I'm moving to Minnesota.

so, yeah.

holy shit, I'm a college graduate.

Mmm, well, my love is out tonight so I have time to write a full complete update on my life. And yet no time to change my little blog description?

I'm 22 now, not 21. Next saturday, I graduate. So...I'll be moving on to being a teacher.

I am living around town this summer still, so that I have greater mobility and can travel for job interviews. My first job applications go out tomorrow.

I was offered a job in South Carolina based only on a brief interview. I'm not taking it because I'm trying to move West, not South...but it's nice to know that I can get offered jobs.

Once I find a job, I will be looking for a place and moving there. Isn't mobility nice?

Otherwise, things are pretty good in my life. I'm happy. Healthy. Working on packing and cleaning for moving out of where I have lived the past two years.